Wednesday, February 4

Stress Eraser (my rant that no one really has to read...)

I am like, REALLY busy right now. & it's making me stressed. which is not good for me. so i will sort out all my problems here. & maybe the stress will go away. So here's the deal- obviously, teachers don't know the meaning of "other classes" because i have a project in almost ALL of my classes!!! & they're all due around this time!!! & it's not helping that my computer went and got itself a virus that includes random pop ups that state that there is a "THREAT DETECTED!" or a "SPYWARE ALERT" when that's the stupid virus itself. -_-;; so, once again, it's not helping. so yeah. anyway, the dumb projects (sorry... i have a ((random)) habit of calling things stupid/dumb when i don't like it. like, i could say, 'Stupid pen'- but only cuz it won't work. yeah, i know, lame excuse. but still...) are CRAZY. like, here's what's up: Geometry: we're doing some kind of tiling or whatever, & it's due next friday. And i've only gotten like, 4 problems out of like, 20, done. Speech: thankfully, NO PROJECTS! Geography: we're just watching boring videos on Africa that have weird music (i swear- the ones we were watching today had Lion King music!!). English: Oral Report, Create-A-Country, "Anthem" (by Ayn Rand- it's pretty good) Study Guide, and i have to annotate it too. None of which i've started on. Orchestra: Solo & Ensemble competition this weekend... yay. (there's so much sarcasm than can possibly fit safely in that one three letter word...). Biology: some report on a disease (i got Tourettes). Spanish: just a WHOLE lotta quizes... *sigh*. Track... well, let's just say no one's really ready for that. Cuz, our coach STILL hasn't truly decided on who'll be on Varsity or JV (junior varsity) YET, and our first meet's Valentine's Day (February 14th, people). yeaaaaah... so as you can see, i'm TOTALLY DOOMED!
(those were my echo effects... just deal with them, ok?!)
hmmm... but anyway, all that stuff is like, due TOMORROW, and ALL next week. and to top it all off... like the Universe (which i've found has some kind of grudge against me and just likes making me miserable) just wanted to make things "so much better" for me... i'm failing math now. only by one point, but still. it's enough. & so now i'm all GAHHH!!! and screaming on the inside. i think my inside self is depressed right now. i'm staying coughsomewhatcough positive on the outside, but i feel like the inside me is like, DYING or something. no kidding. so i'm just trying to let out all my feelings right now. hey- today i found out that Hoobastank sings The Reason, & because i think it's a good song, i think i'll sing it here... but not in any fancy "lyric format" or anything- i still have stupid projects to go work on! i'm just trying to get "relaxed" right now. so here goes:
I'm not a perfect person. There's many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know: I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you. I'm sorry that I hurt you- it's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through- I wish that I could take it all away... and be the one who catches all your tears. That's why I need you to hear: I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you! And the reason is you! And the reason is you! And the reason is you! I'm not a perfect person. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know: I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you. I've found a reason to show, a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do... and the reason is you.
ya know, that song really reminds me of Fang. Like, Fang's POV (point of view...) of the whole break up/ reunion thing. Ya know? he's sad that he left max, blah blah blah, he's mad just because HE left... blah blah blah... catch my drift? kinda? sorry for all the blah blah blahs... but i REALLY need to start my homework now. and i know, i didn't really finish my sentence. I just typed selfish instead of sentence... sorry if i'm selfish. but you know what?! maybe i should do this more often. just because I already feel less stressed. YAY for RANTS! oh, btw, a stress eraser is what i call this really squishy eraser that's in my pocket (right now actually- i'm still wearing my jacket- hey, you would too if it were cold & you were wearing shorts & a short sleeve shirt... ((TRACK PRACTICE, hello!!! xD))) and when i get frustrated during practice (or bored), then i'll just start squishing it. and please, do NOT steal my name/idea. Kristin & I are going to patent it sometime, and i don't want one to already exist when i go to patent it, just because someone read my blog. -_-;; hahaha that reminded me of Maximum Ride: The Angel Experiment, when Max says "yeah, that's just what i need. A string of car robberies across the United States by some dedicated readers"... well, they're probably not the exact words, but they're pretty close. & that reminds me of "it's like, like, grits, but with high self-esteem." (now THAT was a direct quote, and if not, it was REALLY close) (please don't sue me for plagarism JP!!!) btw, she was talking about eating popcorn for breakfast & how it was a grain. like grits. ahahaha grits. Grits is amazing. (no, i'm not talking about the food, grits, but the person, Grits. and probably only Kristin knows who i'm talking about) I know, i know, i said i was going to do my homework. but hey- i'm a procrastintor. i swear, there's procrastination in my blood or something, because i do it ALL the time. thus all the stress right now. & plus, the teachers are all, "oh, it doesn't matter that none of the kids have probably had time to even START my project! they'll still have time to do 2097459237 pages of homework!!" ... yeah no kidding. so i'm DOOMED! again. only this time, there's no echo effects. darn. xD "when flowers gaze at you, they're not the only one's, crying when they see you!" (boston by Augustana) yeah... i'm listening to that song right now. i like it. obviously. :) *sigh* i guess i should go do my crazy amount of homework... -_- "think i need a sunrise, tired of the sunset. I hear it's nice in the summer, & some snow would be nice" (same song, same band) SPEAKING OF BANDS! there's this UBER AMAZING concert Kristin, a friend of ours, and I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY wana go to- a Fall Out Boys Concert. but really and truly, we could kinda sorta care less about them (though I really do like FOB). Cobra Starship (GABE ROCKS!) and All Time Low (YAY RIAN!) are the bands we're really looking forward to. yeah, Metro Station and Hey Monday are gonna be there too... but mostly, we really wana go for FOB, ATL, and... CS? nah, cobra starship cannot be abbreviated. it's too awesome lotirofim. :) ahh! computer's making me type in Italics randomly!!! NOOO. so i guess i'll stop typing now... before my computer starts saying "Printer on fire." hahaha.
tZvR (or rian... but not the awesome drummer on ATL... xD)

2 people were awesome enough to comment.:

Rian said...

... there are SO many typing errors in this post...
I miss the days where I could post like this and STILL get everything done on time. :(

Kris said...

i agree